I Can't!

Why am I such a failure! Nervousness is the only feeling I wish to have it removed from my soul, how many times have I become a failure because of you, how many tears have I shed because of you and how many friends and families have I let down because of you! I can't go on like this, always trying to stay strong every time i failed in doing something and forcing a stupid smile on my face..... How many times have I been comforted, and how many times I have let them down....I will lose count soon...but now I can't go on like this, I need to stop for now in this place while other people keeps moving ahead of me......I'm sorry but I can't do it for now, for the fear is just too unbearable.....